02/06/2011

tired of life......love makes ppl tired....hate makes ppl tired...
why love doesn't bring hopes to me?
why chances never come to me?
or mayb i shall not have love?yeah...i shall not deal with love
juz being suffer
love= business......
not 100% success rate......
have the risk to get failed....

why everyone is happy?
why ?
why i have no hapiness?
why the hell i should always act and makes fool.talk alot of nerd things to makes ppl surround me laugh...why should i makes them happy ?
i scaredto being lonely...
i hate it
i miss my home......those friends i making nw,are they my real friends?
should i trust them?
i had been hurt deeply last time.....
i have a stupid idea before.....
wanna to be cool and quite and have no friends.....
thinking to be like that before.....
mayb will be better?
i duno.....

1years ago....after deeply hurt....i say to myself...that i wont love anyone oready....even all my password i put lovenoone(love no one)to remind myself.....
why ....
why should we meet?
and get known wib eu...
be friend with eu
and then....falling for eu again....
i break my promise....


tears....non stop falling at this time....
i feel vry san fu a!!!!
evrydays hav to wait until midnite...after room mate slp onli can cry ......curi curi cry.....looking at the sky
i must be going crazy one day

i realy tired d.........

i hate myself being like this....
yeah...
i hate eu
i freaking hate eu! chen xiang jin!


GoD!!! help me pls....! im feeling vry suffer!
my heart.....so pain.....wad can i do for stoppoing the pain??!
do wad i do last time?
bang the wall?
mayb....punch,hand hurts,better than heart pain.......T_T